From the album "Sticks And Stones"
Tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you
This time it's for good
Tell all my friends that I'm dead
It won't be long before you forget
My na-aa-aa-ameCna you tell that I'm losing myself?
I think I'm trying too hard to
Let it show
To let you know
Don't trace your footsteps back to me
Cuz I've been gone for a long time
Waiting on the sidelines
Hoping for a chance to play
Well, I thought I would never leave anything behind
I also never thought I'd say
Tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you
This time it's for good
Tell all my friends that I'm dead
It won't be long before you forget
My na-aa-aa-ame
Can't you tell that I don't know myself?
I need someone to remind me
To let it go
Please let me know
Don't trace your footsteps back to me
Cuz I've been gone for a long time
Waiting on the sidelines
Hoping for a chance to play
Well, I thought I would never leave anything behind
I also never thought I'd say
Tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you
This time it's for good
Tell all my friends that I'm dead
It won't be long before you forget
My na-aa-aa-ame
And if I had the chance
(Had the chance)
To do it all again
I wouldn't expect anything less
And if I had the chance
(Had the chance)
To do it all again
I wouldn't expect
I wouldn't expect anything less
Tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you
This time it's for good
Tell all my friends that I'm dead
It won't be long before you forget
My na-aa-aa-ame
Forget my name
ahh... songs that express how we feel... i love them....
the peace of a morning's dew
the sound a sunrise makes
the smell of birdsong at dawn
the coolness of concrete
the heat of a red stoplight
the taste of bustling commuters
the feel of a child's smile
the serenity of an old woman's rage
the touch of a hello
????
a glimpse of actuality
a shimmer of truth
a knowledge of life
a wafting of feeling
a lingering of doubt
a wandering of incongruity
a menagerie of wonderment
a villa of promises
a bazaar of contempt
gone
the world has gone
and left me here
righ where i was when
you appeared
i hate life, i hate death and i hate the ever after...
what do i love?? nothing!!!!! am i kidding?? not in the least...
down with love
down with hate
down with peace
and love
and happiness
those things don't exist!
they never have and never will
a shoulder to cry on, is what i need
but i cannot find one and cannot bleed
cannot bleed to know that i live
and cannot live to know that i breath
i'm going to cry.... because i have nothing anymore.. the longer life goes on, the less and less i have..
so this has taken on a dark and morbid i don't fucking care what you call it.. i'm sick of being me... i'm sad and feel like i'm living in hell.. day after day after day... my own personal hell...
and oh isn't it so much fun?? come and join me why don't you.. you know you want to..
i hate moods like this, i hate beign in moods like this. all i end up doing is pushing everyone away... pushing and pushing and pushing.. i know i shouldn't do it... but i can't help it, it's like a defense mechanism...
"i'm unhappy right now, and don't want to share my feelings. so i'm going to distance myself from everyone, hide in my hole in the ground. ignore me forever please"
now if that was how i really felt... but the other part of me screams...
"don't leave me alone right now!! please don't, please please don't!! if you do i don't know what will happen... something bad probably.. don't leave me alone!! if you ask enough i'll tell you, care about me enough to battle through my exterior... just don't quit trying.. and don't, for the love of god, think i'm joking... i don't joke about things like this... when i'm not laughing, i'm not joking....!!!!!!"
now don't mind me while i cry...
days of old... i don't want to talk about now
days of new.... i don't feel like talking about either
so why am i writing?? who the hell cares.. i just am...
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